i'm freakin' ....

today started as a bad day
no electricity pepagi
yet still kena masak
k never mind lah tu

but post-masak tu
omg panas panas panas

then a weird thing happened
not really weird
but managed to make me wonder
and actually think

hahaha lama tak b'pk cuti ni ;D

k so screw that lah

so basically few days ni i wasn't happy
tido pun awal

yeah i kinda turn in early la juagk whenever i feel sober

today pun started kinda crap

but tadi...
weeee.......

i feel contented!
happy finally!

yeay!!!!!!




too early to say it
but insyaAllah

keeping my fingers crossed
amin amin amin


=D =D =D

siyes kamu memang seksi ;p

so this evening i read Fatin Liyanas' blog
really in love with her blog

also with hers truly
suka sangat tengok si FL ni pakai shawl
memang stylo and buat rasa semangat pakai shawl

hehe

lepas exam baru lah ada can nak selak balik older post bagai

the ones that got my attention the most are on her korean food eating spree (omigosh really do miss bibimbap)

satu lagi post pasal her dream guy

ada 6 points altogether

and ye suka sume jugak

FL suka a man in suit

yes i do too but

tapi as weird it may be

i actually find men in kurta very sekseeeeeeyyy ;p

yes u sure do read it right

K-U-R-T-A

bukan menatang , bukan juga bibimbap versi india

tapi ni

kalau my buddies suka lelaki pakai baju melayu with jeans

(they might really kill me if they know i'm slipping this out hehehe)

saya pulak suka tengok kurta-wearers eh pelik bunyinya adjust sket le

saya pulak suka man sporting kurta together with a pair of jeans

seriously major nosebleed =D

tapi please just yang simple2 je

not the fancy ones

just lke macam ajay devgan pakai dalam lagu ni

dia pakai kurta biasa je and jeans

dok rumah

baca buku sambil duk atas kerusi buai angkat kaki sebelah

omg ajay devgan ni orangnya bese2 je tapi i found him very2 appealing sporting that look

hikhik

bila tengok encik devgan pakai ni rasa cam homaigod hawt gile nanti nak kena standby banyak pasang kat future mr nanti..hahaha ='D

u may agree with me right away but

kalau curious and rasa pelik

sila lah tengok mv lagu ni dulu

baru leh kutuk and wonder why

my sis (one yang sangat pelik on me obsessing over hindi movies just like me not getting her and the worldwide craze over justin bieber..oopps bite me) mesti pelik gila post ni

and possibly on my taste ni men

kehkeh

abehla kena tadah telinga dengar dia bebel t

so i wanna conclude, just like FL concluded that only lanky, toned-body guy looks good in suits,

i pun rasa lelaki muka india,melayu je yang elok pakai

cuba bayang jaejoong oppa pakai kurta gini

entahle.choppy editing ke memang tak hot langsung oppa pakai kurta ni

oppa i like u just the way u are

saje random: tahap excited memang pelik lepas tengok cite hindustan..lalalala

clarification: faRa's bLuRbs tau.bukan faRa bLuR...

habis kuiz CVS, Respiratory yang ok esei, agak hampes MCQ
bukak blog, something tickled me
i started giggling

ni bukan 1st time actually..hehe..tapi hari ni rajin pulak nak tulis blog.
ceh cam takde EAW research report yang nak kena hantar kan..
btw terima kasih kat orang skudai tu.. =)
juga kat ada several orang yang pernah google blog ni

tapi blog kite ni namenye fara's blurbs. bukan fara blur.

blurbs ni maksudnya cam simple review or description on something.
lebih kurang gitu la maksudnya..

blur pulak maksudnya kurang jelas or konpius kan..
ye kite memang blur orangnya sebenarnya tapi tak sampai ati nak mengaku kat blog sendiri
pe tah lagi jadi title blog
teehee ;p

so paham da kan sekarang =)


saje random: tapi kalau ada lagi orang nak google 'fara blur ke bebel' pun takpe je.
i find it cuet, eh cute actually ;D

Hey there pain in the ass

why do people love being a pain in the ass??
just out of nowhere, thrusting blade straight onto your heart
(i was being metaphorical. that blade was really just some crap)

i guess simply because being that pain makes u stand out from the rest
just like a bad tooth.
hmm kinda ironic, though ;)


saje random: missing home. mama esp, for the 'be strong' yada yada stuff she's being telling me every time i broke down on phone. and i really feel like it now... ___-)

selamat hari kasih sayang

2u2 my fren =)

bila saya sakit, dia pun sakit juge

oh tuhan.

weekend 2 minggu lepaas i battled my inner demons a.k.a the raging emotions i unexpectedly had to confront
being at the lowest, weakest, dispirited state of mind, i have failed the battle
and thus succumbed to the urge of putting the world and everything revolves on it behind me.


okeh, it's not like i neglected my tido ke (tapi die affect tang ni la bila banyak selubung kan.paham2 la ;p), mandi ke, semayang ke..not to the extent la.
im still kinda rational gitu =D



weekend aritu pulak, out of a sudden that saturday.. demam. sejuk sangat.sakit tekak.mungkin sebab i haven't fully recovered from the weak state i had the previous weekend.
sabtu ni suara ala2 chipsmore kejap ada kejap takde. bile ade die jadi EN. chipsmore sebab garau tak macho langsung..bila ada die memang seayu-ayu CIK chipsmore. suara perlahan/lembut sampai tak dengar gitu..haha.


so setakat ni memang burn lah 2 weekend berturut2 tak buat pape.
such a waste considering the fact that sekarang ni memanglah musim quiz..tsk

sekarang ni, demam and batok still ada.tapi recovering.
cakap pasal qz tadi, ya tuhan. tak susah. serius tak susah.
sebab jawapan dah ada dalam notes.
tapi what disappoint me the most is thati couldnt remember banyak gila
especially ntok dr azian and dr qamar's.
dr retno punya alhamdulillah boleh jawab sebab dah baca dulu b4 demam ni lagi.. yang lain nye,baca time demam2 ni la. frust betul sebab da bace, punya ingat2 name buah2 yg toxic tu bla2.cam ingat je..
tapi bila masuk exam hall, mana pegi nye??

teruknya.rasa geram kat diri sendiri.tapi pikir2 i shoudnt have.it wasn't my fault.i know i've tried my best, tapi considering i demam, mungkin la setiap kali batok uhuk uhuk tu keluar satu
satu mende yang i try ingat tu..hahha =D

takpela. ade la platinum lining kat awan memane ti.

oh lupa, dia pun sakit gak. =( kesian dia kerja penat2 ntok kitorang.
dah la badan kecik je. penat la tu kan.
sori ye sayang..
rest2 la dulu 2,3 ari ni k..
sedih ni tengok sakit.


ok.bye.nak stadi.esok ada quiz CVS and RESP.
tadi dah cakap dengan orang2 kat rumah..rase semangat pulak nak stadi. semoga dipermudahkan. AMIN.

and yes, DISTANCE really does make the HEART GROWS PONDER.
cam best tajuk ni kan. tunggu la update pasal ni (ceh bajet ade orang bace..tsk2)

jangan be deceited, sayang saya tu kereta Kancil i ye.
tadi tetiba pancit tayarnye.
penat bawak kitorang 8org ni la.
badan comel2 sume..hehe

current music: billy preston&syreeta-with u i'm born again

esok ada kuiz pukul 10.30 am and yet ...

the hazards of being EMO

1. esok ada kuiz pukul 10.30am ni and yet here i am still trying to susun ayat tulis blog
2.. esok ada kuiz pukul 10.30 am and shoot i don't bother to complete my reading
3. esok ada kuiz pukul 10.30am kat exam hall mane tah and yet i cannot stand the urge of getting the hell out of here asap
4. esok ada kuiz pukul 10.30am which carries 5marks and i feel so burdened reading the topics though ive had the whole weekend to finish reading
5. esok ada kuiz pukul 10.30am and as opposed to the the 1st 2 quizzes..rase semangat je buat syukur tapi yang ni rasa macam nak gigit-gigit je kertas tu padahal belum buat pun lagi
6. esok ada kuiz pukul 10.30 am paper physical pharmacy 3credit hour , as opposed to the 1st 2 quizzes (2credit hour) and yet i still don't feel bothered.gila
7.esok ada kuiz pukul 10.30am and i still can't stop listening to 'my happy ending avril lavigne'..dari tadi dok repeat2..gila i memang gila

kesimpulannya, weekend ni paling tak produktif langsung.amat sangat. i didn't study. i did, but it was just like a blind date (both me and the notes are staring at each other blankly, takde interaction langsung) what i did was lying on bed, listening to stupid emo songs, selubung dalam blanket and at the moment tear duct ni cukup stimulation dia, keluarlah air mata kekalahan saya.


oh tuhan maybe i haven't prayed hard enough for You to ease the tense i'm having atm. i believe You have good reasons for this.just please give me the strength to move on.


=-(

current music:avril lavignes' my happy ending

tentang seseorang

... and the award for the best liar goes to you

for making me believe that you could be faithful to me ...

current music: avril lavigne-my happy ending
(gosh even the song im currently listening to is so damn related xI )

sila kawal muka KELAT/KETAT anda

the new semester just began.
a month being home gave me a lot to ponder,
emm no no i didn't go the beach, watching the sun set, PONDER and dush2 datangla mencurah-curah all sorts of imagination, inspiration, intuition ke sixth sense ke hape
tak tak

in fact my way was much simpler, and even cheaper
i did a lot of thinking at nights, especially before i'm off to bed. pasal ni la susah sangat lelap malam2..eh tapi kan banyak lagi supporting arguments die..bace ni

i save money nak isi minyak kereta nak pergi santubong beach kan (ye lah kunun nak inspiration..nuuun jaoh la kene pegi..isk ape merepek ni xD )

then da save money, save lagi air, sabun basuh fab, jimat letrik washing machine (cehh cam tipu je..baju lain banyak je kena basuh xD) tak payah pakai baju kunun lawa sesuai nak gi beach tu (ni tak tipu..baju i sengkek je :(

pastu yang ni jimat manyak besar sekali..jimat eh cam tak sesuai pulak guna jimat, k la kurangkan sikit dosa menyumpah2 kecik time drive tu..as the saying goes 'you never really learn to swear until you learn to drive' .. tapi ni informal quote ye jangan gatal amek letak dalam esei Bahasa Inggeris anda..ceh sangat tak kelaka. hmm tapi the saying is indeed very much true le.. especially bila bukan salah sendiri. xkua yang over sangat lagi kot. tapi time marah kan, kdg2 tak sedar. isk2 xbaik nye.

adekah ku secomel ini bila geram ketika memandu? haha xD

baik lah jadi azam tahun baru saya nak jadi lebih sabar semasa memandu.

besides kurangi dosa, jimat jugak air liur btul tak..buat stok di kala malam nanti hahahah ;D
ceh penipu lagi i suka buang air liur jugak dalam kereta especially kalo sorang2..melalak la sorang2 dalam kete..tip berkesan nak bagi nyanyi sedap, radio tu kasik pecah telinga, pastu nyanyi ah..suaramu menjadi semerdu mane2 artis yang korang tengah kunun jadi tu even sebijik lagi .yela da kuat sangat sore korang pun cam tersame la pulak ngan artis tu ye tak..
hehehe


oh yes lupe, kena juga berazam sabar........................................





.................when i am being summoned. *sila kawal muke kelat/ketat anda di depan polis trafik farah.they're just doing their jobs.*

macam ni ke agaknya muka anda farah time kena saman tu..tsk2

o tak. my locks are black and i've sun-kissed skin (perkataan poyo ganti sun-tanned skin) lain la sket yek..
;p

kalau pelik, actually i intend to write on different topic at the beginning
tup2 keluar tulis jadi post lain pulak.
tu lah pasal apa yang diponder tu tak keluar2 jugak cite die
hahahaha
perubahan hati betol