Monday, January 16, 2012

miss my edward..so much~~



u will always be remembered

Friday, January 13, 2012

the story

semalam exam dosage design
one of the killer subjects
tapi diuji tuhan pulak malam and pagi nye tu
demam and sakit kepale

and frankly speaking
aku kalau sakit kepale mmg kaw kaw punye
sebab migrain kot
malam tu bangun nak sty up tapi i felt so weak
so decided to just go to bed instead
hoping that pagi tu da ok

but it didnt
it only gotten worse
so sebab ptang smlm xm
wlopon urge nak tdo tu kuat sangat
tpakse la bangun nak stadi kan
letak koolefever mnom air gelen2
ade actifast tapi...
aku tak tau knape kalo mkn pcm je
msti ngantok
padahal pcm ni mere antipyretic ngan analgesic
and stau ak bukan sleep-inducer pun
tapi kalo ak mkan je msti ngantuk

so pagi tu even tho berdenyut kepale
tahan je bace

tapi emm camne la mbace dlm sakit pale ni
adoi mmg masok sipi je la
kadang2 pk knape la ak ni tak genius cam certain org
bace camtu je da leh skor
ak ni jns kene stadi hardcore pnye baru la leh skor
tu pun bukan la skor mane

tapi da saket gtu xd maknenye nak bace beriye
lagi sakit pale ad

da le gap xm sehari je nota ada 30
owh whiny sungguh aku ke? try putting urself in our shoes la
orang gap smgu due kitorang pling lame sehari
3 minggu exam gap sehari and wkend je
sile bayang brape paper kitorang amek

ok emo la ni kan
huuu
so smpai2 kat exam hall tu kol 2.30 tu
xtahan sangat so aku telan jugak actifast tu
ngan harapan time xm ilang saket pale atleast

tapi sadly tak.
i literally cried time exam tu
i hardly recall anything ive read
and as expected, i feel kinda drowsy
that i nearly dozed off
mungkin jugak sbb i felt so weak
jawab xm letak kepale atas meje cam orang xd smgt jawab
huuu

that feeling when u ad headache,drowsy, tak leh jawab
tension tengok unfamiliar faces kat xm hall
(maksudnye senior yg xpnah pun repeat b4 ni..tapi repeat paper ni)
i literally cried time xm tu

perasaan takot tu sgt2 kuat
aku risau gle ni klo rezeki xde and kne repeat paper ni
omg sedihnye klo cmtu
klo camtu 1st time la repeat ni
tsk tsk
tapi mgkn ad hikmah kot
lgpun i've faced failure yg much worse than this
tah la pasrah je la

so tu la one of things happened to me
sedihnye
sampai skg tak leh get over it

just hope lulus je
amin amin amin

think positive think positive think positive

Thursday, January 5, 2012

semoga dapat goreng jawapan jadi sedap dan lazat.=p

tqvm :) akan cuba masukkan semua perencah bagai ..haha

Ask me anything

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

oh the feeling

it's the 3rd January 2012
still not too late for me to bid farewell to 2011
and welcome its predecessor

it's the 3rd January
and yeah, i'm already in examination mode
so far i've got to kill 3 essay papers

so how did i do so far??

i'd say..hmmm
seriously i'd rather not say
don't know why certain things got into me
in these crucial times

those who have the privileges
to access my updated thoughts and ramblings through ....
i'd rather not say too

haha

..might have noticed the vivid discomposed and deranged
ramblings i've made the past few weeks
but really i am a kind of people who spill out lots of things but only on superficial
so memang ada yang tanya
kenapa nangis..kenapa sedih je sekarang...kenapa tu kenapa ni

ade la. tak ramai tanya
tapi ada la certain people might have noticed
tapi never have i revealed the exact reasons
just a little 'emo sket' ,'xde ape', 'omsik je' etc

this has been going for about one month lebih i think
mula2 sem semangat..
my kind of semangat mungkin lah tak sama dengan orang
tapi at least i was able to focus on studying bila ada quiz
attend classes, engaged myself to stuffs (again tak same la ngan orang yang aktif sane sini but still)
but then, something happened.and i just lost it..

so basically a series of downturns  started to take place
my mood act up like a rollercoaster
kejap down gile kejap high gile yang mungkin occur sebab im trying to conceal and cover everything up
and selalunya mama jadi victim, unfortunately
bleh kate everyday i call her just to sob
haha sampai my bro cakap aritu..kalau orang kol mama je, mesti aunty gee atau kak diba je
;p

tapi kan..my mom pun tanye..why, what's up with me actually
until now..
so basically the mystery (misteri ke? ) has yet to unfold
by anyone..

hmmmmm
(i literally just took a heavy, deep sigh just now)

sampai sekarang, i still feel it
sampai sekarang, i'm still trying to ignore it and get my mind on track
tolong lah..lupekan sekejap time exam week ni

o god i seek mercy from U

happy new year

=(

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Sunday, January 1, 2012

Will you stay up 'till midnight tonight?

yes..most probably..exam week

Ask me anything

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