Thursday, August 6, 2009

hidup di uni yang tak seperti dibayangkan

i've always heard people saying
that life in the university is so much fun
so much great
so laid back



but the one i'm having here is nothing like that.
not even close.


first of all, we pharmacy students here
need to learn ANATOMY.
which is the core subject for errrr??
medic students..
or does P.H.A.R.M.A.C.Y. actually spell medicine?

and fyi, here is the only university offering(which i do not welcome at all)
anatomy for pharmacy students.
i'm still not sure bout the universities abroad but well,
in msia, yes it is.

well, this is not just some stupid complaints i made.
just now, one of my course mates revealed her dissatisfaction
about our packed, hectic schedule to one of our lecturers..
she almost cried. well her mother did.
it's really something weird for me(for any of us i think)
that a pharmacy student is busier than a medic student.

but it is here.
our schedule is way hectic than the medic and dentistry students.
erkkkh... i;m still not used to it.
i admit, i did break down a few times here.
the environment, the people, the lectures,
the subjects...

i hate it!

we need to learn so many extra subjects which are not necessary
as a pharmacist
anatomy,arabic,bahasa melayu, islamic worldview(omg the 3-hour non stop
lecture is killing me!),tilawah,halaqah(need to memorize almathurat,hadis,surah bla3 in such short period)

o god! even now i feel like crying
i do not mind learning all that.
well most of it, but when it comes with all those anonymous terms, long surahs,
hadiths,almathurat,needed to be memorized in such short time..
well now that's a burden

especially for someone not from an islamic school background
like me..and a few others.

many times i tried to comfort myself
by saying ' takpe dapat pahala'
but each time, soon after that, i started breaking down.
what i need is time
and space


nothing can be forced rite..
now that i'm here,
in a islamic-based university,as a uni student,
as someone who have lost the very one golden opportunity before

i've kinda changed a bit
ive started focusing on lectures(altho there are those times that i just cant helped it)
ive started revising every nite(tak banyak pon sikit)
ive started bla3..(ade la mane bleh cite sume)

well i noe ive changed a bit(tak banyak mane)
but if my emotion is consistently unstable like this
i donno if i can keep up with all these
im just afraid i would turned out to be the same ignorant farah i
used to when i was in intec, the farah who has given up longgg before ssabsa..

and eventually, led her here.

and seriously, she hates it!
serves u rite.kalo tak u wont be here.


=(





current mood: emo

8 comments:

tiha. said...

dear!!!

be strong

takotnye dgr .huhu
pls don't do something stupid okay kak!

good luck!
:)

fighting!
and
miss yah

earth angel said...

omg!!siannye u dear
so ridiculuous k nak blaja semua tuh serentak
not if im saying tak baik blaja tuh semua, memang baik syg, memang bagus sgt bagus ilmu akhirat tu
tp nak serentak wala weiii..
makan dalam gak la kan
mane nak paham kalau blaja cmtuh
memang la system uia camtuh ke
ape2 pun u buat betul2 k
i here to support u ;)

PutraRocker said...

hohoh...
sabar dan ikhlas..
usaha tangga jaya..!

janji Allah itu pasti..
insyaAllah..
(",)

oryza sativa said...

kesiannya Farah.. sabar ek.
xtau la mcm mana kalo aku ditempat ko. Nak hafal2 hadith, surah pjg2, susah tu. Tp xpela, farah. bagus jugak dpt hafal ilmu2 agama ni. Cuma kena kuatkan smgtla.. nak study ilmu dunia lagi. Kena pandai balancekan la.

kitorg kat Aussie xde blajar psl anatomy. Blaja Physio je..xpela kan Farah.. kuatkan smmgt..

harmila said...

hehehe....
sabar ye makcikk..

tpi mmg dasyat ahh tmpt u..
huhu...

HuRuL_AiNi said...

salam dear....huhu...lama x dengar ur story...must be hectic there right...but be strong my dear..insyaAllah ada hikmah di sebalik semuanya :)
cayo2, aja-aja fighting...gambatte :)

Redz da Tsar said...

cuba try amik medic... hehe... Pening seyh...

kery said...

tapi aku rase mmg agak btol jgak kot..bdak medic mcm relax sikit (slightly) klw nak cmpare ngan pharm...tapi blajar anatomy tu rse nye mmg patut, tak for sure korg tak study anatomy tu gle2 nye mcm bdak medic..hahaha tapi mmg sokong gak ngan Redz, medic mmg pening...even though byk relax(ktorg la kan, klw lain tu tak taw la plak kan)..anyway, sabar je la bebanyak ngan uia...

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